acidulous heart canker
Borges teaches that the obscure and forgotten are not the chaff. What counts as wheat does not causally correlate to merit.
Yes, essay means to try. And for however long, it was my particular defect to pledge only to try to try harder. Not simply to try harder, much less to just do the thing - period. To essay a change - so what? To change in fact: and off we go. To try to not have insomnia. To not have insomnia. To structure a life in which sleep can happen at anytime.
Lest this be taken as too precious or rich, I can say that I was walking on public land that almost everyone assumes is private and came across a dead Canadian goose whose bottom half was beneath the ice and whose wings and neck were above it.